- Salam.
- Today, is the last day of year 2009. 2009 is the year that so many things were happen to me. And it was so hardly for me. I lost my real father on the 2/6/2009 cause of kidney's problem and I lost my lovely mom on the 24/6/2009 cause of heart's problem. I really cannot handle my feel and my mind. It's so hard for me to say anything. I got nothing to say how I feel.
- I feel so terrible. That’s a lot of problems faced to me. And I try to solve it slowly and steady. I don’t want anything to me and family. I try controlled myself not to over act. If I cannot controlled it may caused a lot big problems. It can cause effect my family. I don’t want my family included in my problems.
- I really missed my lovely mom. I missed her very much. Every single day I cry and cry hardly. Nobody knows I’m crying. Sometimes I’m blurs. Don’t know what to do? Every day, time, minutes, second, I’ll always think about my mom. Even wake-up every morning the first thing in my mind was my mom. Then slowly I console myself and think, yes there’s no mom anymore, no mom to talk, no mom to laugh.
apa yang aku lalui sedari kecil hingga arwah emak meninggalkan aku adalah begitu manis dalam hidup aku, bila emak meninggalkan aku pergi tanpa kembali, aku dibuang oleh...tak perlu aku nyatakan...lumrah dunia. setiap insan mudah lupa...lupa akan kehidupan mereka...mereka alpa dengan duniawi tapi lupa akan akhirat...tapi aku redha...mungkin ada hikmahnya. jadi aku mulakan hidup aku dengan jalan aku sendiri tanpa mereka
DIARI 2009
sepat ronggeng
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